A Mole Day

A Mole Day

Today, while sitting in church it dawned on me that everything surrounding me in my life is dirty. Chaotic, messy, gross, and dirty.

It took me two tries before i could find a seat in church. Most of the seats were filled with crumbs or puddled with spilled coffee.
Robert coordinated a fun pot-luck for after church. There was tons of food and everyone in our church really gets into this stuff. However, after serving most of the food, i was unable to eat any of it. Purely because i had just watched tons of people breeze through it. The deviled eggs that Judy made looked great....until I watched a homeless woman drag the bottom of her jacket through them as she walked beside the table. I stood behind the table and just watched every item become gross to me one by one. In the end, i though i could at least get a chip. But that was only until i saw the kids dive into the bag with their dirty hands.
I grabbed a drink and sat down. Holding in my almost freak-out attack. Just then, one of the kids ran up to me and handed me a balloon that looked like they had rolled it in hair and dirt from the floor. At the same time, a well known man on the streets began talking with me. This would have been wonderful, however i was watching him spit his ice cream all over me while he spoke.
I stopped hearing what he was saying because i was so in the middle of dying from seeing his spit landing all over me.

This is when i reached my breaking point. I ran home in the rain. I ran to my home which is also chaotic and gross due to major construction taking place. The dust and dirt from the hallway floors caked on to the bottom of my rained on pants and shoes. I went through randomly placed furniture and objects like a maze before getting to my door. I took off all my clothes and slid into my bed and lost my mind. ""
I lost my mind for 6 hours. Just me losing my mind in my underwear, hiding in my new "performance fleece" bed sheets. The only clean, non chaotic space in my entire community. My loving husband brought me food and many popsicles and a movie.
He is precious.

I have been a mole this entire day. A TOTAL MOLE. Now that its 8 pm, i am still a mole, but a mole who is now out of my "performance fleece" bed. I have now moved to my couch.
I am not ashamed.

Sometimes being a mole for a day is the only way i can survive here. And i feel like thats ok..
But in the end i remember that the reason why i stay here , is the same reason why i had to be a mole. I stay because of the woman who drug her coat through the eggs. The man who spit a hundred times on me. And the kids who hand me sickening balloons. I love them. I cant help it.

On a side note: If you think you may be about to lose your mind, you might want to consider purchasing some "performance fleece" sheets first!! Robert got me some as a glorious/creative valentines present. I cant describe them....you just need to feel them!

P.S
Thank you to my nieces and nephews who sent us some cute valentine pictures! I didnt know that was the "in" thing to do these days, But i thoroughly enjoyed them!

Taking the passenger to the Presidio for pics

For those of you who do not have access to Facebook, here are some of the many pictures i recently put up.

My wonderful friend Elise, came into town for the day and took me out to take some pictures.
I'm not usually one to put up millions of pictures of myself, but i feel like if there is any time to do it....its while im pregnant!

Thanks Elise, for taking pictures of me and the passenger!
What a fun day we had. And somehow i feel like the passenger had fun too!

Tribute to Trader Joe's

Thank you Trader Joe's for being so enjoyable and making me feel so special every time I enter your building. For causing me to temporarily forget that i live in the Tenderloin during the short time that i wonder through your aisles...sipping on free coffee samples.
And for being so affordable!

My favorite product as of lately is chocolate soy milk....cant seem to get enough
of it!
My picture shows "Silk" soy, but you should really try the Trader Joes brand!!!

Fat for the first time

4 1/2 Months!!!

Here you go everybody....for the first time ever, a chance to see
Tiffany Clark have a massive body transformation!

FINALLY!!!!

Sorry im so behind with the blogging.

Christmas time is the busiest time of year for us within our work at City Impact, as well as in our personal lives. But now January is here and I can take some time to re-cap.

Brief Re-cap

1. We did not have a camera at all during Christmas time. None of our work events, or personal celebrations were able to be documented. Huge bummer.

2. We had two Christmas outreaches in Dec. One was two weeks before Christmas, and the other was on Christmas morning. Both were incredible. But Christmas morning was especially fun because my sister Sarah, along with her husband Ben were able to come out early in the morning to participate with us!

3. We had a wonderful and relaxing time with both of our families. We spent part of our time off with my family for Christmas. Followed by a delightful time in the mountains to celebrate a second Christmas with the in-laws.

A few things you might be wondering about:

1. The "bird nest of love" (our loft bed) has now been lowered for the past couple of months.
I should probably come up with a new name for it, but i cant seem to break away from "the nest"

2. The "Little Old Woman" in the window across the street had been deemed dead a few months ago. (according to me and Robert). However, just tonight as i was thinking about her, i peered out my window and much to my freak-out-ness, THERE SHE WAS! And with a fresh new hair cut! What the heck?!

3. My stomach continues to grow each day and i continue to grow more and more excited about meeting this tiny passenger!

Now that i have found our camera, ill be taking pics and posting them. Especially because i need to create a post dedicated to two items that im obsessed with. I will also see if anyone else has some holiday pics that i could share with all of you!

Begining to Look Like Christmas

I have been so busy so tired and so unmotivated to blog. But I apologize to those who are totally into checking this on a regular basis.

So, again i sit here very tired, therefore i will just throw a ton of pictures at you....since thats mostly what you want to see anyways! Enjoy!Robert and I got our tree...its the biggest one we have ever gotten!

Tons of Christmas sweater were given to our students last week.
So they all tried them on!

My thoughts on laying around in bed

As I sit here in my bed, eating french fries with ranch I decided I should blog.

Here are just a couple of my current thoughts on having a passenger inside.....

1. The food i have been eating is both wonderful and scary, tasty yet so gross.

2. Two days ago I had Robert help me to remove my belly-button piercing which i have had since age 16. After it was removed i lay on my bed crying, wondering if i would ever be "cool" again.
Wondering if i would be able to ever put it back in again so that i could be the mom with the belly-button piercing. I cried also because i was freaked out to look at myself without the tiny piece of silver attached to my body. It took my 24 hours before i could look at myself.

3. Im wondering how a peanut sized friend could possibly cause me to be this hungry all the time?

4. Im wondering why the hallway of 3rd floor has to smell so bad all the time, causing me to want to die every time i enter to kitchen.

5. And im thinking I might be boring for the rest of my life, based on the fact that I cant handle doing anything other than going to bed by 4 pm every day.